The feeling of formlessness

I had this strange sensation a couple of days ago while I was meditating in the Ashram at Pondicherry.
I was, in my head, imploding myself to lifelessness and trying to feel a sense of oneness with the Higher force. 
I have been doing this many times, along with the opposite experiment of expanding myself into a universal largeness to feel small and again, connect with a higher force/being.
Now, although I have been doing both of these, I had a strange feeling this time because as I was trying to come back to consciousness and into myself - I had lost all sense of my body in my head. I actually felt that I was nothing. I couldn't feel my physical presence, my body, my arms, legs, the fact that I was sitting Japanese style, the ground - nothing. 
The feeling was wonderful and immensely moving almost a spiritual epiphany of sorts. Although there definitely is some solid scientific reasoning of this sudden senselessness - what I was feeling then was nothing short of a momentary spiritual achievement, albeit insignificant. 
I felt, in that moment, one with everything. But more importantly - a complete loss of self. The disappearance of the physical self. And this happening within the Ashram felt all the more satisfying.
It was as if I had disconnected with this plane and was floating or just existing, formless in another. Almost shed away from physical matter. I couldn't find ways to express it but that small experience moved me immensely. 
I don't know why or how I felt what I felt. I have tried to repeat that feeling or that experience, followed what I thought would be able to help me repeat the same experiment to achieve similar results but in vain.
It took me more that 4 days to be able to process that feeling and put it down here. 
This isn't a post to laud my achievement, but just a simple reminder that sometimes - the Divine has a way of making people experience him. Just a glimpse, a small experience to move people and make them aware that he truly works in mysterious ways, but not without one's sincere efforts to look for him.

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